Monday, October 27, 2008
Jesus daddy, I hate the way things are going now. I hate it that everytime I study hard, it is not hard enough. I hate that I don't look forward to getting my results back. I hate that I don't perform. "Some people are not made to study" am I the some? I sure hope not. It really hurts that people are improving my leaps and bounds, but I, (beloved of Jesus Christ, daughter of the One who died to give her everything) I... I don't know what on Earth.
Yeah, I know leave everything to you...everything will work out in due time, that you have everything planned for me... everything will be fine... that you love me to give me everything... I don't know what else peole will say to comfort me once they know how badly I messed up my promos. I dont want comfort, I just want everything to turn out right.
JESUS BUT THIS IS JUST NOT RIGHT. NOT RIGHT.. NOT ONE BLOOD BIT RIGHT.
